Angels and Immortals

[battousai_24 here]

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 15:28:34 GMT

Okay... Ange asked me to edit her lj a bit. The text is now easier to read. Sorry bout that. And as for the background pic. I will try to fix it some other time. I don't have much time tonight, maybe tomorrow. Sorry Ange.

And what else? Oh... yeah... I also applied the the transition code to the lj... opposite of mine of course. Well, that's about it. I'll try to fix this again soon.

Aishiteru, Ange. Miss you. I'll see you tomorrow, right?

...battousai_24 here...

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 23:01:58 GMT

haha... XP yatta!! i'm finally finished editing ange's lj! hehe... thanks to lj layouts. ^^x well... it's a pity that i had to lessen the image quality... it doesn't look so nice, but it's better than pink. at least it fits the color scheme of this lj. also thanks to irisa, i found out how to change the layouts of the ljs. hehe. so.. there. hope ange is ok with this... it's not too nice, but hell, i can do with it. besides, it's tomoe. haha.

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 13:19:02 GMT

You are a normal angel. Innocent and pure. Full of
light and hope. You love to be around others,
and really know how to have a good time. You
enjoy hanging around with mortals. You like ti
sing, which you are great at, and like to have
others near you. People are naturally attracted
to your bubbly personaliy, and love to be
around you. Normal angels are always popular,
and have lots of fans. You are happy go lucky,
with an interesting out look on the world.

Though you have experienced pain, that is all
behind you now. You see the bright side to
things, and are always there to help a person
in need. You are quite pretty, with a childish
air, though you know more than others think.

You are a really friendly person. But can be a tad
selfish at times.

You are bright and full of energy.

Better get my shades!

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Sat, 03 Apr 2004 13:14:17 GMT

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.

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Sat, 03 Apr 2004 13:10:50 GMT

Your Heart is Red

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Sat, 03 Apr 2004 13:08:30 GMT

Your ideal Middle-Earth parents are Aragorn and
Arwen! They are the king and queen of Gondor,
which makes you a prince or princess. Not too
shabby, huh? Youll get to take over the
kingdom someday. Look at you, all
heir-to-the-throne-y! Oh, did I mention that
you are gorgeous? Your Middle-Earth mama is
practically a supermodel, while your
Middle-Earth dad managed to turn heads at
eighty-seven years old. Youve hit the genetic
lottery, my friend! Your last name is
Telcontar and you live in the city of Minas
Tirith.

Your Middle-Earth mama is Arwen Undomiel. She is
an elf but gave up her immortality to be with
your dad. If you do something bad she will
probably lower her head in sorrow and shed a
tear or two, which, although it may not be her
intention, is major guilt tripping. Through
Arwen you are related to Elrond and Celebrian
(your grandfather and grandmother) and Celeborn
and Galadriel (your great-grandparents). She
is also a link to your uncles Elladan and
Elrohir, who spoil you rotten.

Your Middle-Earth dad is Aragorn. Since he became
king he has been going by King Elessar, but he
has a lot of other names too. He is an amazing
warrior and will teach you everything he knows.
Some dads play football with their kids - your
dad gave you your first sword at the age of
three! Aragorn is the disciplinarian, and
since your grandfather Elrond raised him he is
very stern when necessary. Just behave
yourself and you should be fine.

I hope you liked my quiz. Please rate it, okay?

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Sat, 03 Apr 2004 13:03:31 GMT

Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

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Aishiteru...

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 20:43:47 GMT

I'll stop the font now. I'll just do this normally.

Chi... she always says "Aishiteru" to me. It means, "I love you" in Japanese. I found it soooo sweet and cute. I loved hearing it more than I love you even if it means the same thing. I love Chi. I love my immortal... my bestfriend. I just love her so much that I'll do anything. I'll smile for her when she needs it. I'll hug her. I'll kiss her. I'll do anything she wants me to. I'll do anything she asks of me. No matter what. But she never did. She never wanted me to do anything. She didn't ever ask me to kiss her or hug her or love her. She never told me to come over when she needs me. She doesn't even talk to, text, or anything if I'm busy. That's how I was lately. I didn't have time for her. I didn't see her. I didn't reply to any of her texts, her IM msgs, I didn't even return *any* of her calls. I'm so stupid and inconsiderate! I was being such a bitch, but she didn't say anything. She didn't keep on texting or calling. She gave me time. I'm sorry, Chi... Baby, I'm really sorry. I love you baby so much. Forgive me? She texts me at least once a day just to say I love you (Aishiteru for her) but I can't even find time to say I love you too at least once for a whole week!!! I'm being such bitch, a real bitch. I know she doesn't want me to call myself that but I am. I'M A BITCH!!! I'm a bitch because I don't even say I love you to the one I love, the one I'll be with forever. The one who calls me an angel even if I'm not the one who calls me Ange the one I really want to be with! I want to be with Chi. I want to hug her and kiss her. I miss her. She's in America, vacation. Can't she come back now and just kiss me? What am I doing? I'm being selfish. I'm wanting her to go all the way back her to just kiss me. I'm selfish I'm not an angel. I don't deserve to be. I don't even deserve to have Chi. I don't deserve to be with her and to have her love and to be the one she will die for and be the one person she will do anything for. I have to admit I feel special to knw that but I don't deserve it. I always hurt her even if I don't want to cos I always don't have time. I always have to be busy with something. I always have to make that an excuse and I always have to be such a bitch and don't even say hi or even I love you. I'm stupid and bitchy and selfish and ungrateful. She's done all those things for me and she'll do those and I don't even do anything for her but be a bitch and don't care and don't find time to just call and say hi or ask if she's okay. She's a depressed person and she's really hurt and pained and all those other things but she tries real hard to be happy with me because she says she doesn't want to see me sad and see me hurt and see me crying for her because she's just a "pathetic" person but that's not true. She's not pathetic she may not be holy or innocent like that but she is really kind. She loves me so much and I know it's hard for her to be that happy when with me when she feels really sad inside. I understand her and she told me that that was what she's always wanted to have. Someone who understands, cares and holds her close. She said that to me when she was little and then the night I kissed her and we got together but she never asked me to be that person but she thanks me cos I stayed and became that person. She said the one time I can't forget that cos she had what she wanted and needed she was happy and she doesn't need anything else so she can die she almost killed herself again and again I stopped her cos i don't want to lose her. It wasn't only because I didn't want her to die because she had so much left to do but cos I don't want to lose her and I'm being selfish again. Now she says she has decided on another thing she wants and its almost the same as what she wanted before but she wants someone not me this time. She said that she already found two people who fit into two of those things and they're her two friends: Aileah and Michelle. I admit again that I'm jealous of them because they can spend a lot of time with Chi and they have time for her when she needs someone to talk to and I'm not there like always. I'm jealous cos they are part of what she wants and cos they care and understand her and cos they stayed even if Chi hurt Michelle and tried to hurt Aileah. She told me all those things she cried on me she didn't want to but she cried cos she hurt Michelle and she tried to hurt Aileah. She cared about them and i was jealous cos of that and cos they care too and they understand and they are like her and I'm not like her at all I'm almost her opposite and they are similar to her. Sometimes I want to tell her not to be so close to those two but I stop myself cos I know it's selfish and sometimes I want to hold her close protectively when she's talking to them on the phone or texting them or tell them Chi's not here when they call and I answer just so I can have her for myself and be with her alone with nobody else and so I'm the only one she will be with and she will hold and kiss and hug and love and care for and die for and... I'm being jealous and selfish again and I can't blame myself I have to admit that I really am i can't deny it. I love her and I'm obsessed with her and even protective and possessive even if I know that she really loves me more than anyone. She falls in love fast that's why I'm jealous and when she falls for someone she never fall out of love with that person and I mean never. She will always have that kind of feeling for that person and cos of that I'm being selfish. I don't want to share her with anybody. I want her. Mine. Only. Nobody else's. I want her to kiss me and do anything to me anything she wants and do anything I want her to do to me. Sometimes it's lustful in a decnt way but I know it's always love. Sometimes I need her badly need her to kiss me and I long for her touch. her touch is different from anybody's. She resists and she always asks for approval and when i let her that's when she just continues. Even just to kiss me or hug me she's being that way and that's what I love about her. She's gentle in a rough way, innocent in a sense that she already knows a lot of things including pain and sadness, loving... to an extent that she will do anything, caring and comforting in a cool yet warm way. She's different from anybody else i know and I like her that way and that's what I really really like about her. I love everything she's doing and i want it only for me even if it's selfish and impossible. I really love her. I'm obsessed with her. Obsessed in a sense that I want to be the only one she will look at and care for and love and kiss and hold and touch and die for and care for and lie next to and talk about and think of and be the reason for everything she's doing and be why she's still alive and be her happiness that was lost and be the only one who can give her pleasure and be the only one she wants and needs and the only one she will b e with for the rest of her life...

of course i can never tell her that. i can never say that aloud to anyone not even her even if i know she will understand. i will never say that aloud but i can put it up here and that's the only way i can get it out and the only way i can let her know how much i want her and need her and love her and just how much I'm obsessed with her and just how special she is to me. That's what she wants to be, she said. She wants to be special to someone and feel special. I'll try very hard to make her feel it because I want her to be happy because if she's happy, I'm happy, just like she said, if I'm happy then she will be too and she got this quote from an anime show she really likes, "I'll protect your happiness" and I tell her that too because it is true. I love her and I will make her happy that's why I'll always be happy in her eyes and I'll always love her no matter what and I'll never let her go even if she says she wants me to cos i can't do that cos if I'm the reason she's still alive, she's the reason why I'm living and if she tells me to let go and i let go I will die and I don't want to be away from her cos i love her so much. I don't know what I'll do and I don't know what will happen to me cos if she's gone I can't think or do anything anymore. I can't live cos I'll die if I'm not with her. I love her. I need her with me now to hold me.

"I love you, Chi. Aishiteru, just like you say it. I'll always be here for you, my cherished immortal. I'll be here forever and I'll do anything just to get a glimpse of you. I'll always be waiting... no matter how long. I miss you. Love, YOUR Ange."

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 16:21:47 GMT

-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.

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